I’ve been diagnosed 

Imagine a cloud, a little personal cloud that follows you around. 

It’s black and grey, rumbling and pouring. 

And it’s heavy. As heavy as an elephant. 

It holds you down.

The weight makes you sulk. 

You no longer enjoy doing what you’d once loved. 

Even as a foodie, food doesn’t seem that appealing. 

The weight just forces you to lay down. To stay suspended in time. 

It leaves you in a dark room with all your worst thoughts. 

With no candle or match, you’re left to fend for your self. Against these beasts that know your worst fears and all your weak points. 

They beat you down until you have no spirit left. 

Until you no longer have the desire to do anything. 

You feel alone and lost. 

And to those you open up to, they can’t see these beasts you’re fighting. Or the cloud clinging to you. 

The doctors cause it a disease. 

Your friends call it nothing, or a bad day. 

I call it a leech- draining everything I have left. My unwanted friend, depression. 

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Jonah

More Than My Skin

I can’t believe it’s only one more week until I get to meet some of the amazing people who’ve been contacting me since I started this project. Each of your stories are deeply personal and familiar to me. I know that they will be read and enjoyed by others going through their own journey. Feel free to share your own if you are so moved to be a part of this.

And so I’d like to introduce you to Jonah, from Maui. His girlfriend Tomiko had found my website and told me their story, which deserves a page of its own. Here’s what Jonah had to say:

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“I’m from Kaupo, Maui, the countryside of Maui. My full name is Jonah Kaulanaokouinoaokalalani Baisa. I am 19 years old, but will be turning 20 this June.

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 My vitiligo started when I was 5. The hardest thing that I had to face was to…

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Reflection Paper on Voting: Not the Hassle it Seems to be

         I always told myself that I wouldn’t vote. My father is the involved one of my parents, he always been. In education and government wise, my dad was active, he was a strong Democrat. I avoided politics because I think that it brings out the worst in people. I used to come home from my government class and tell my dad all the stuff that my Republican teacher would tell us; my dad would simply shake his head. Even my teacher, he was really easy going but when it came to politics he would be a jerk; he even said that anyone with Obama on their class ring wouldn’t be allowed into class (I hope he was messing around). I never wanted to choose a side because it would come with the stereotypes. I didn’t want to vote because I know that I would be bombarded with mail. My mom always stayed away from the voting because she would say that politics are stupid and knew people would bug her about voting. So I went under my mom’s shadow and strayed away from the “horrible” voting process.

            However, it wasn’t even as bad as it people make it sound. After I was offered an extra credit opportunity, I saw an ad online for “Rock the Vote”. The process was very simple, and short too. First it just asked for general things like my address, name, and email. Then it took me to another screen to finish my registration where it asked more detailed questions and the most trouble I had to go through was getting my driver’s license out. I requested the mail in voting so I could do it at home. But by the time I got my mail, the deadline to send it out passed. So I worried that I had to go to vote in person. Seeing the long lines on T.V. scared me, I didn’t want to be stuck in that, especially because Election Day was a busy day for me already. I get off of work at 1 then class at 2, and then I had my second job at 6, and needed a nap before then. I was thinking, where am I going to fit the time to stand in line? When I read the voting mail, I found out I could just drop of my mail at a designated spot, and there was one at city hall, which was down the street from my work and school! I was so relieved. And when I opened the papers I thought to myself, this is it? It wasn’t a hassle at all. In fact it was so simple I had to re-read the instructions to make sure I wasn’t skipping anything.

            I enjoyed it because I felt like I was making a difference. In the back of my mind was that voice saying I’m just one feeble person who isn’t going to make a difference in the system, but like in A Bug’s Life strength comes in numbers, so I knew I would be helping the cause, adding onto the accumulation of individuals. I felt responsible, exercising my right to vote, not being lazy and avoiding it; so I felt pretty good by the end of the day. When it came down to my choices I considered my family, or my father, what he has taught me and how I’ve been raised. So I am a Democrat, but as I told my dad before, we don’t have to fight, I think Republicans have some points sometimes and sometimes Democrats may not be always right about everything, so people should come together for the better, instead of always bickering at each other. Religion wasn’t involved since I’m not that religious, but I also kept education in mind, primarily why I voted was for prop 30 to pass. I wanted to do my part to help.

Best love quote I ever heard (:

“Love is like a wave. You can’t control it or own it, and sometimes you don’t even see it coming. when you’re on it, you feel like you’re on top of the world, and when the ride is over all you can think about is getting back on it. Sometimes it lets you off easy, and other times you get dragged under. But in the end you just gotta go with the flow and see where that wave takes you.” – My dear friend, Jonah

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